I have an honest confession to make.
I have to admit that I’ve played it safe most of my life, and have recently realized that I’ve also been playing it safe with my healing practice as well.
My whole life has been about trying to make everyone else happy. Thus, the reason I became a healer!
Now, I realize that there is nothing fundamentally wrong with this, in fact it’s a wonderful thing; when it is done for the right reasons and in the right way.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been the “Rescuer!”
You’d have to ask my mom, since I can’t possibly recall, just how many animals I’ve rescued as a kid, and apparently still do. For those of you who have known me for a while, in one word – Jessica.
I’ve spent my whole life trying to save and help everyone else, because I thought this is what was expected of me. I “believed” that if I saved and healed others, that I would then be saved somehow. I thought that in order to be loved and accepted, I had to put everyone else first.
Society loves and proliferates this belief and it’s one I have struggled with for most of my life. I’m sure you have too.
I believed that if I played it safe, did all the right things, put others first, made sure that everyone liked me; that I was helping make the world a better place.
On an outer, intellectual level, this belief worked, yet, on a deeper more intuitive level, I knew it didn’t “feel” right. I just didn’t know how to balance these two different pieces of information.
In other words, I struggled with letting my thoughts and beliefs control me, while ignoring and not really listening openly, to my inner intuition and knowing. That “gut” response of what “feels” right and what “feels” wrong for me.
In all honesty, it was far easier and safer, for me to rely on and trust my thoughts over my feelings.
This is something I have seen over and over in my practice. We all tend to do this, in order to feel safe and secure in a chaotic, unreliable world.
I’ve spent years, struggling, to finally trust my feelings over my thoughts!
It’s not easy to trust your feelings, as they can seem scary and uncontrollable. There is still a lot of mystery around why we feel and react emotionally, because it’s based on such individual experiences.
Your emotions draw on all of your past experiences. So, if growing up was kinda tough, and full of emotional turmoil, then to draw on that overwhelming amount of emotional baggage can be uncertain and out of your control. At least, this was definitely the case for me.
Even though, I’ve spent years working through and clearing my “traumatic timeline” through the powerful healing system of Dynamic Medicine. Releasing, all the old emotional trauma’s I’ve ever experienced. So that my life force is able to use my feelings freely, without being encumbered by old unhonoured, repressed emotions. Every day is still a new life lesson. Every day, I open up to one more hidden secret that I hadn’t been ready to work through until now.
The last 6 months have been a whirlwind of even deeper discoveries for me.
As I’ve connected even more, to my true inner knowing, my heart core self, I’ve realized I was still holding myself back out of fear. A fear that I wouldn’t be loved if I honoured myself first.
I confess that I have played it safe with my clients over the years because of this fear. In order to be liked, I’ve often sugar coated their issues for them. Thinking that this is what they wanted. Knowing that the remedies and the process would heal them anyways, but I played it safe, and I would like to apologize for that.
I had a deep fear of not being liked, if I was fully honest with what I know and spoke my truth as I see it. I was afraid of my own inner knowing and being honest with myself!
In a way I was playing “God”, by thinking I knew what they could handle and what they couldn’t handle in their healing process. I now realize that is not my decision to make, it’s theirs. I realize, I need to stop trying to rescue and start helping my clients to heal in the best way I know how. Full disclosure without the fear and to trust in the process.
Every human being, at the most fundamental level, wants to connect with others and be unconditionally loved. I’m no different than anyone else. What I’ve realized though, is that by playing it safe in order to feel loved, I was doing a disservice to my clients and myself.
I don’t want to play it safe anymore!
I want to be able to live and practice every idea, every truth about health and freedom that I’ve ever learned over my lifetime. Without fear. I want to resolve all of those things that I haven’t implemented fully, because of this fear. A fear that ultimately I created.
What I realized I needed to resolve first was my unconditional love for myself.
I now know, that there is no fear in life when you realize who you are at the most fundamental, intimate level. No one can ever harm you, embarrass you, shame you, upset you, unless you want them to and you allow it.
When you choose to live in your truth, every moment of everyday, life opens up to all of the possibilities. It truly becomes your own playground to do with as you choose.
Are you ready to live your truth on every level?
I know I finally am!
I’ve realized, that by choosing to help people heal themselves fully with this whole, life altering system of healing called Dynamic Medicine. I have chosen to accept, that I may not be liked by everyone. That by bringing people closer to their own true core and truly working through their emotional and mental demons, it can create fear, drama and at some point a desire to lash out or run away.
I realize, that I have to be okay with this, that as a dynamic healer, I can only truly heal myself, then and only then, unconditionally offer what I have learned to others in the best way that I know how. With every bit of truth and integrity that I have.
At the end of the day I can still help others, without denying my own inner truths. I can do what I do with love and a deep desire to help you become a greater healthier you without fear.
I am making a promise to myself and to you, that from this day forward I will be as open and honest as I can. That I will honour my own path first, be who I am and who I desire to be without fear. Knowing that the universe will always unconditionally love me.
I vow to stop playing it safe, just to be liked.
I now understand, that in order for me to truly help you to heal yourself wholly, I must unconditionally share the knowledge that has been gifted to me through my own journey. Without fear, knowing and trusting that, you will know what to do with that information.
Nothing more, and nothing less, has now taken on a whole new meaning for me!
Now it’s your turn to share. I’d love to hear;
What area in your life are you playing it safe, just be be liked?
What fears do you have around speaking your truth?
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Wishing you a Health Inspiring Week,
in love & much gratitude,
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I wanted to share this incredibly beautiful comment I received today after this went out to my newsletter followers. It made me cry!
“My Dear Andrea:
If you only knew what a blessing you have been in my life, stage after stage, year after year, you have always been there for me.
Even when we haven’t been in personal contact, your wisdom clings to me and pushes all the self doubts out of my mind so I can listen deeper and get through the clouds of chaos produced from the continual self talk.
My intuition has been allowed to grow and I can listen to my body and its needs instead of hating it for pulling me down.
When the terrible tragedy hit our family with the murders of 3 innocent children, I immediately turned to you and the Dynamic Remedy kit Loss & Grief, because I knew even in my agony at the moment, that my body was suffering trauma and that I could help it along to release the shock more easily, instead of suffering for months. Without the deep blanket of pain, I was able to go through the natural process of grief with clarity and even reach a point of forgiveness to the perpetrators.
I have always found you completely honest with me, knowing what I can handle you sharing with me at certain times in my life, you knowing full well how much deeper I needed to go but wasn’t ready yet. Would it have been better to tell the whole story of what was ahead in the learning about myself, possibly overwhelming me with things I wasn’t ready to learn yet and surely doing more damage then good, causing me to just give up on the whole process?
It must be frustrating for you sometimes, not knowing all the time, how well your teaching is being received and if it is making the difference in this world you want it to.
Honestly? My feeling is that in our lives, it is not about the end results about what we do for others because that is up to them, but the LOVE AND INTENTION behind your work.
You made me realize also, that what other people think of me is none of my business and totally irrelevant.
So, when I do what little I can for a cause by donating something, I know it goes with love and good intent, and what choices the people at the other end do with it, is their choice, and that is what I tell family and friends when they scoff at me and say why do you do that, you don’t even know if it will get to the needy. Do I stop doing what feels so right and good, because I am afraid of not measuring up to what others think? What a huge relief and lesson I learned in my “pleasing others life” “and my controlling life of needing to always know the outcome of things” which by the way, I learned from you to let go of.
Now I have more courage to have healing things in my life like rest periods and prayer time each day, totally undisturbed by the needs of others and intruding phone calls etc., that can always be addressed later……or not. Finally, I learned how to say NO, again thanks to your wisdom.
Your news letters are very interesting, and I can always relate to your personal stories, but I can only imagine how much effort these news letters take because you want to truly share something from your soul, so by-weekly or even monthly maybe, would be enough for me, giving you more time for spring gardening, sitting in the grass petting your rabbit, talking to your horse or exploring with your dogs.
I appreciate all the work you did creating these new remedy kits which are amazing and so much easier for your clients, and I appreciate you being there every year for the flue remedies, and for sticking with this life path of yours in Heilkunst because I know personally I have so much more to learn. Keep up the good work for as long as it is working for your growth.
So from one CHILD OF GOD to another,
Love and Light,”